have i ever been so hurt by someone i don't love. My anger is ridiculous everyone knows, i don't want them to see but its so tangible the anger in my heart.if you really felt that way you could have told me i thought we were close enough,but no instead i have to endure these calls from your bitches.Why?do you realize what you've done!you've filled my head up, i Julianna Joy got gassed because in the end thats what it really is.Did you really love me like you said because it did seem that way.Your acting is wonderful i really thought you loved me and that you would always be their forevermore i thought we were gunna grow old together as lovers or friends i was cool with either way,but now I'm not so sure,how could you just brake me down like that i must really love you then,because i know im stronger than this I AM but damn that just blew my mind i didn't think or even imagine anything like that happening.I wanted to cry, then i just felt angry& mad at the world for what they've done to me mad at God i will admit,for allowing this man in my life just to pull him away in the most horrible manner.Or maybe i did it to myself but man o man i really believed in you in myself, and i got hurt.You had the nerve to call me bitter,yes i remember perfectly well. And you go ahead& do what you did and wonder why.Its men like you who make me this way even though i try hard not to be it doesn't work you cant just forget something someone did to you.And you just cant forget someone no matter how hard you try their always their in the back of your head.I'm mad at you very mad but i just cant forget you,your haunting me and i bet your just fine.You just walked in and walked right out of my life and i dont like it.I was always the "nigga bitch" if anything i should've broke your heart.Your my almost lover.And because of you i will be bitter but what can i do I've been scarred with lashes of love & it hurts, i want to love but i cant.I don't think i can be happy now.But i shouldn't let you take that the only thing i have away my happiness ill be damned.But its already happening and i know not what to do.You made that morning so horrible i wish you know how i felt.I almost dropped a tear for you. I'm stronger than that i dare not cry for you,you didn't for me.i really didn't think you were just like the rest of them just getting that pussy,you convinced me you were better but your not.You just care about you, i should've noticed that awhile ago,you basically told me but my eyes were covered by your beautiful smile,your wonderful lips and your perfect eyebrows i was lost in your spell&you knew it.I thought i had you,i mean you were always their but i guess not, you had me wrapped around your cute little finger.How could i have been so stupid ughh it kills me to now just notice how stupid i was ugh.But like they all say what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger,but its hard to confuse stronger with bitter.I don't think i can trust,you've cause so many things to transpire in my head.I finally see why you picked me i was like your fucking doll except i had attitude.you tried to apologize but i will not let you back so you can continue your dirty little works. You will get what you deserve and i hope that when that happiness you'll think of me because I'm always their.That bitch you got telling you what to do is not better than me except maybe she sucks your dick like i didn't.But you'll get whtas comming to you, when it happens don't call me.
Im Done With Your Shit
